Credit where it’s due

I feel.....that I'm never going to get the props I deserve...I could play out of my skin and yet someone else will get more credit.

Ha...I never thought I'd get annoyed with being Mr Reliable but there you have it, anything my teammates can do, I can do just as good if not better when it comes to technical things and eurgh...I dunno, maybe, maybe I am getting the praise now I think about it but I come across as someone who if you tell me I will not be fussed or something I don't know...

Anyway I guess I don't really respond the way people expect me to but you know what? I don't care, I'm not going to bend over backwards to please you...if I'm happy with myself then I'm happy, I feel I have come a long way from a year ago but still not where I would like to be just yet.

James did bring up a good point about me not doing as many tricks as I used to do in Mary Hare and I thought "fuck, he's right" but I know exactly why that is...I had to cut them out of my game when THAT injury happened as it affected my knee if I moved it in a certain way. So then I changed my play and became about passing and playmaking as opposed to taking my man on.

Anyway, now that my knee is better I can actually go back to that way but first it requires me to shed a bit of weight simply to make me a lot more agile and to make it easier for sudden changes of direction which a lot of my tricks utilise. I've been working on that and I'm happy with how it's gone so far however there's still work to be done and I can't help but grin at how excited I am at this...it's almost been a year since that operation and look at where I'm at and where I'm going.

Also just as a side note and a reminder...I have an addictive personality so don't even think about trying certain stuff. The things you're addicted to now is bad enough...(though I could argue that I'm not actually dependant on it but whatever)

The Samba Magician journey

I had a dream last night…although technically it should be referred to as this morning but whatever. Anyway, I was coming back from a knee injury I had and was a substitute for a football game for my school team and when I did get on the pitch, me a Philip proceed to play dazzling one touch football and quite simply destroyed the other team even though I only came on for 5 minutes but yeah…

So yeah, I got to thinking about my current situation and how I can get back to the Jason that I used to be, with terror and frightening the other team. I mean, I still do now but I just don’t feel right, like I’m not at the best of my ability.

Maybe it’s just I don’t feel fit enough or that I feel bogged down by something but I just really need to sort that out and get back to it. Maybe a schedule and routine which lets me get back into it all would help? Though it’s a bit hard when you have to work on the only days you get to play football. Ahh well, given the choice between the work I do and football, money wins out every time and hey I love the job anyway so it’s not as it’s bad or anything. The only way it’d get better is if they actually paid me to play football hahah.

At least I haven’t forgotten

Hmm, should get back to updating this thing soonish, plenty to say really…

Shoes, shoes and more shoes

Good grief! This time 3 years ago I only owned one pair of shoes to my name especially as I was not bothered by shoes especially because they cost a bit and I would scuff them up a lot but now...at the time of writing this I have (in order of receiving them) Nike5 Bomba Finale with Samba Magician 10 stitched into them...oh how my knees crumble at the thought of them...anyhoo, to continue the list, Nike5 Streetgato, Nike Air Max+ 2011, Nike Lunarglide+ 3 and the latest additions to the family, my Nike Alphaballer and my Air Force Ones Premium and come release date I will hopefully own a pair of CTR360 Maestri in purple and white and I shall love them.

I was disappointed that yet again I was given false information but I guess all you can really do is grit your teeth and get on with it I suppose but it does mean that I have no football boots for Sunday's match unfortunately but I guess it's not a total disaster as hopefully I can burrow someone else's pair and dominate in them but I get what I'm given...

Anyway today was a very materialistic post and I chuckle to myself at the thought of that as I never thought I'd get to that point but ah well, I guess if I was so filthy rich that I was sweating money I would buy things as well but as I think about it I just think, I wouldn't really change as I'd be the same oblivious and slightly naive person I always am but just in better clothes and trainers.

Anyway, hopefully those CTR360 are in my possession soon enough but I should really start to think about space as I have literally nowhere to put my things...I think Sunday morning requires a clearout...

A line crossed

My…goodness, I’m done with you, defended you for long enough and now you’re going to refuse to play when you are asked to?

Carlos, Carlos, Carlito…I defended you when others would criticise, heck not just me but others would too citing your work ethic and talent as reasons to overlook these mishaps but what do you do? Simply spit back in the faces of those who’d support you, eurgh…

The public has a very negative view of footballers especially with the wages that they get and I have defended that to an extent and then this happens, you refuse to play and then claim there was a misunderstanding…a misund- what. the. fuck. No, no no no nonononnoooo you don’t get away with that, you’ve been here in this country for how long and you’re still at the point where someone telling you that you’re going to come on the pitch can be misconstrued for you to sit and sulk like a bitch on the bench. MY…GOODNESS…

I just…eurgh…no. I’m done with you. Zabaleta blanked you when you tried to talk with him and I laughed, oh how I laughed…

Now I’m not even making much sense anymore so I think I’m going to stop there and say there is nothing you could probably do to make me look at you in a favourable way again. Right now I’m not mad at you as I’m sure you had your reasons and it made sense to you but for me I just can’t and will not deal with you anymore. Goodbye.

Haven’t we been here before?

Oh my goodness, so so sooo predictable, you really think I didn’t see that coming? You think that you're the only one to comment on my attitude but what I will say about that is let’s face it, it’s because it’s pretty much same old same old. I do what I do in order to better myself, I mean come on, I will be frustrated about stupid goals being conceded and/or passes and things going awry.

I’m supposed to be satisfied with the situation right now? Am I supposed to be all happy and smiley with the fact that yet again we cannot seem to do the basics right? So I was a substitute today and yeah I was disappointed (no shit) especially as I knew that it was politics that this situation arose, I am so confident and buzzing in my ability (thanks to working with such brilliant people) that to be on the bench was annoying especially as I feel that I shouldn’t be dropped but meh, I’ve been here before and I’ll do now what I did then and that’s destroy…everything. Goals, assists, tricks, chances, I shall do them all and show you why I am the best, why I am unbeatable, why you never really should put me in a corner.

Oh how I’d hate to be you right now…

Going above and beyond

So it's been a week and how has it gone so far? Quite amazing if I'm honest but maybe that's the naivety and enthusiasm talking, who knows, with a bit more experience my outlook on this may differ drastically but I doub- hmm I can't promise anything, but I think there's enough change in this to keep things fresh and new, always new customers to greet and new opinions to take in, always people to learn from and I find that amazing, not only that but bonuses aren't a bad motivator either, I'll be honest, I'm not in this for the monetary goods but rather the experience and the just being there in order to be a part of something great.

Anyway, it's been quite interesting the things I've learned from workmates and customers and I've taken all of this on board and am going to use it to adapt and change my style and this excites me as I constantly feel I'm improving. For starters nerves often make me forget my words and certain bits of data but I noticed over time I was remembering more and more and able to recite it to customers. Bomba Finales, ohhh boy, I love selling this because I actually really love this boot so it makes it easier to show that to the customer which can only be a good thing.

All in all, I feel I'm improving with each day and am enjoying life at the moment