King Lawliet

Introducing King Lawliet

Anime and manga is also something that interests me greatly, again a lot of this is probably due to the fact that I watched a fair few as a child, you know the regular ones like Pokémon...oh Pokémon, still love it to bits now, probably the games more than the actual show or anything but still.

Then you had your Dragonball Z which was huge, I think everybody must have watched that at some point. Goku was probably the most popular character but since I tend to have an aversion to main characters he was anything but that to myself. Oh noo no noooo, my favourite back then was Trunks or to be more accurate Future Trunks, guy had a badass sword when he entered the scene and pretty much took down Frieza in one go, something that Goku and the prince of Saiyans Vegeta himself couldn't do, speaking of Vegeta now I'd probably say he is my favourite now, maybe I'll go into more later but moving on.

The Green-Eyed Monster

When you watch things from the outside you start to become envious of what people have. Even more so with people who are close to you and especially more so with people who used to be close with you.

After watching Fullmetal Alchemist I got to thinking about which of the seven deadly sins was I the most guilty of and at first I thought it was Greed with a bit of Envy mixed in but now I truly believe it is solely just Envy. Of all the other sins I can't really see me being that but Envy...maybe it's because...I want to be someone else...nah that's simplifying it too much as I'm happy with what I am but...there are certain traits I desire from people...I see them do what comes naturally to them and I wish I could do the same but I...just can't. Or at least it would just be a pale imitation and all.

It's not just traits I desire but what they have as well. Maybe I am being greedy but I want a "best" friend. I see extremely good friends go about and I make friends and I...don't know...............would I consider any of them my best friend? Would...any of my friends consider me their best friend? Maybe it's my personality and the way I'm just viewing things that makes it seem like that, after all I don't actually (or I don't think I do) get close to anyone really and while I'm friends with a lot of people I often think maybe the bond with some isn't as strong as I'd like it to be.

Hahahaha, I shouldn't even be getting jealous by these types of things but I get jealous over my friends a lot. It might not seem it but it happens especially when I see another person talking to my friends and attaching a stronger bond. It's fucking ridiculous. Fucking Envy.

I envy how certain people can be all confident and go out the and do their business whereas I don't know, I'm not even sure about a single strength I have. Like I said I envy certain traits that my friends have.

And then we have couples...I hate couples...at least that's what I told myself...I hate the fact that they depend on each other so much that they inevitably end up hurting each other and the fact that due to emotions they can make such illogical decisions but I suppose the truth isn't that at all...the truth is a bit obvious now. The truth is that rather than pour my feelings on this sorry excuse for a blog, I'd rather be pouring it on someone who actually cares.

Yeah...talking to a "soul mate" who cares legitimately about your problems and loves you for you and would do anything for you while in turn I'd be willing to do the same back...but I guess that's the danger isn't it, building the perfect partner in your head that anyone that doesn't match up to the standards you've set for the perfect partner is automatically considered a "failure".

To finish this entry off I think of one more thing and one puzzle that mystifies me, something that I've been thinking about the last few days and that's my exes, how they seem...happy now...and yet that bothers me when it really shouldn't. I'll...have to think about that some more.

The Fullmetal Turtle

Fullmetal Alchemist, something I've been missing out on for quite some time but recently I've managed to read the whole manga series and watch half of the Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood anime and I actually love it. This will go down as one of my favourite manga of all time (but seeing as I haven't really read all that much really I don't know if that's saying much).

Just the whole storyline had me hooked from start to finish, okay there were some parts that I just wanted to get through quicker but they even had their moments of awesome.

As for the characters, the one thing that I noticed was that no two characters were actually similar and that everyone had their own distinct personality and it made everyone......except maybe Sloth interesting (then again the screen time certain characters get does make a difference). But I realised that I could actually sort of relate to Edward Elric and I see similarities between us despite the fact that very rarely the main character of a story is someone I like and quite often I get annoyed with them a lot.

With Edward he has an automail arm and while it has its uses and that can be seen in several instances where if he had a real arm he would have been in real danger so really just making do with what he has and utilising it the best he can. That's how I feel about my hearing aids sometimes, the ability to switch off sound is one that is a pleasant gift at times. It's not like sight where you can "switch" that off with a simple muscle action of moving your eyelids. My hearing aids allow me to switch off sound at a whim but the downside of this and the downside of Edward's automail arm and leg is that we are completely at the mercy of it and me at least, I feel completely vulnerable if something happens to it and I'm exposed to the world of silence involuntary then it frustrates me because I know it was never my choice to be there in the first place.

It's why I can empathise with him and the loss of his arm and leg.

Anyway I'm pretty much just watching the anime and I'm loving every moment of it and I cannot wait to finish it...well, when it's over it's going to be sad that there's no more but ah well.