Too many voices, not enough action

Ahhh I think that match sums up our season really, good spells and the potential is there but ultimately if a little bit more application and effort is shown by certain people then we would do so much better.

The final score today was 3-3 and also of note is how I finally scored after however many games it was but as always I forget about those goals as quickly as I score them and focus on the chances I missed.

I wanted to win but it was apparent from the kickoff that not everyone shared my sentiments as the attitude of some players in the squad is poor. Next year that has got to stop, as I said in my last Samba Magician video I know what I'll be doing to improve myself and that's the attitude a lot of people don't seem to take. They seem to think they are faultless and blameless but it's often the ones who think that aren't really.

Records are made to be broken

A hat trick was scored and it was ruthless, no mercy was given, it was the sort of hat trick that people could do nothing except for applaud. Oh yes, it was that good!

...Just a shame that the hat trick was scored by the other team...and to tell the truth I have no idea whether they actually scored 4 goals or 5 goals or whether someone else actually got their hat trick as well.

Yeah, we lost...badly

I also heard after the match that this was actually our worst ever defeat and boy were we setting records when they scored 15 goals past us with no response whatsoever.

Time To Make It 2 Out Of 3

The journey to Milton Keynes for the English Deaf Football final against Birmingham was tiring...but it was worth it, question, why was it worth it? Answer: Because of this. Yes ladies and gentlemen the Samba Magician is now a two time back to back EDF Champion. And this comes a week after getting this runners up medal after being beat 7-0 in that final but let's reflect on the positive stuff

I like to think that feeling extremely hyped up for the match and woooo, that was crazy, I like to think that that contributed to that first 45 minutes where myself and the rest of the team went in hard.

The Samba Magician

Introducing The Samba Magician

Ladies and gentlemen, you are now in the presence of a true visionary, the one the only, the Samba Magician. Why the Samba Magician? Quite simply because I have skills like a Brazilian and tricks like a magician.

I started off playing football at a young age as you do in the school playground with all your friends and I have really fond memories of my time there such as how we used to do the day after a champions league, the Manchester United supporters vs everyone else. So we'd have like Manchester United vs Juventus or Man U vs Barcelona with of course everyone who didn't like Man U on the Juventus/Barcelona side. The same applied for the Arsenal supporters because back then no-one cared about Chelsea or Liverpool because quite frankly if you didn't support Arsenal or Manchester United other you were a nobody.

You sicken me…your kind should be banished

This…is going to be long so if I was you and you don't like long rants, I'd stop here. No seriously.

Anyway today we had a cup game against AFC Mottingham, for those of you who don't know about this team they have no shortage of what we'd call "scum" in their ranks and I shall explain why in a bit.

The match started out as a bit of a shaky affair, they were pressurising us a lot but it was no cause for concern as it's a recurring theme with teams who face us and aren't very good. Play fast and furious for the start and ruffle the other team's feathers early to mask the lack of stamina in your own team. So all we had to do was to be patient as I knew that the last half hour in the game would be crucial as that's when they'll be exposed as the unfit team that they are.

Things didn't quite go to plan as we conceded quite early on as miscommunication rears its ugly head and Ryan and Tommy failed to deal with what should have been a simple clearance leading to Mottingham scoring in an open goal quite clearly putting a spanner in the works.

The second goal came from a penalty which was from a clumsy tackle from Phil but I do not begrudge him for this as he is inexperienced in the left back role and I suppose will gain the experience and get better judgement of when to attack for the ball or to stand them off.

The penalty however was one that was actually poorly taken, they had already made clear their intentions to blast the ball so all that was required was to save the shot that was clearly going in the middle but that couldn't be managed. Suffice to say, that was disappointing.

So here we were, two-nil down but cracks were clearly showing in the other team, they could not pass the ball like we could, they did not have a dominant and imposing figure in the middle that could control the game like we did. The only time I got worried was when we starting to play a little desperate and stopped playing short balls and were all over the place and lost our shape but those moments were few and in between.

The second half was maybe a little better however I did have a few concerns at how slow we were to move the ball from the back. I get a little nervous when our centre backs and full backs get the ball simply because there is usually little room for error and past experience has shown me that when put into a pressure situation like that the right decision isn't always made.

I am a firm believer in that if myself, William and Ryan are playing in the middle then we should always have the ball the majority of the times when we want to attack therefore we should quickly give the defence an option to get the ball to us as quick as possible so we can do our job and supply the ammunition for our attacking forces.

So in the second half they scored after what should have been a routine save from a long shot somehow squirmed underneath our goalkeeper to give them a three-nil lead. Yep, this clearly inferior team were winning by 3 goals because of us, not because they were decent or anything but because we gave them all three goals.

We got a goal back when William decided to dribble straight from kickoff after their goal and somehow Mario had placed it in the back of the net to cut their celebrations short but not only that they had managed to get a player sent off to make harder work for them as their lack of stamina was now beginning to show.

Mario got us a second and a third goal to bring the score back to 3-3 and they managed to get yet another player sent off in the process and thus the game went into extra time.

No-one could break through during it so it went to penalties which...well we lost.

If you made it this far...good for you, that was the match report, a little background information about what spurred this on and my utter disgust.

AFC Mottingham are the most disgusting team I’ve ever played and yes while it wasn’t everyone in their team so I apologise in advance for tarnishing them all with the same brush but you really aren’t that much better if you condone that sort of antics. Football………I grow tired and bored of it, I barely even watch it anymore as I’ve already been more interested in playing it than watching. I love playing it so much as there is nothing like executing a slick one-two or a piece of skill to amaze people, there is nothing like thinking 5 steps ahead of everyone else, knowing what will happen in a move, what you want to happen in a move and yet still being flexible enough to change at a moment’s notice when things do not exactly work out as planned.

Football is a game which it simply about getting the measure of your opponent and trying to score more goals than the opponent and that’s what things should be left to. So when threats are made, when people start essentially behaving like thugs and hooligans it spoils the fun for everyone else and if you are the sort of person that gets a thrill out of breaking someone’s ankle or leg in a game of football then…I pity you.

I feel sad and annoyed at how football has this sort of “laddish” culture towards it and people don’t display the proper amount of respect that anyone as a human being deserves. It’s sad how people can gain enjoyment over wanting to physically hurt another human being and using sport as your excuse where if you did that in the street that essentially is assault. Don’t get it misconstrued as I am not saying that no-one should tackle anyone as there is nothing wrong with a good tackle and I in fact really do appreciate a good challenge but when you are rushing in a 50/50 challenge at 100 miles an hour for a ball you have no chance of winning, what is the obsession with trying to just swing your foot and hit whatever you can? I’ve never understood that and while I don’t criticize referees as they do a tough enough job as it is. This is one thing I felt he should have been a bit tougher on as nobody should have to jump out the way of a reckless challen…assault, concede possession of the ball and then receive absolutely nothing for it. It worries me how little protection we get from teams who basically have thugs who want to kick and punch their way through ninety minutes of football.

The things such as threatening to break someone’s ankle after a game or even worse threatening to knock out a referee of all people simply because he didn’t like a decision, it’s sad how this is what passes as grassroots football, it’s sad how a team as violent and as scum as they were can proceed to the next round of a tournament, no doubt they will be reported and yet nothing will happen.

Vincent Kompany recently came out with a statement saying that at grassroots football racism is most prevalent during it which while that is indeed true I feel this whole racism issue as of late has been nothing but a buzzword for journalists and papers to sell their stories and to simply make money while not actually caring a bit for the actual issue on hand. The thing is at grassroots football the whole attitude stinks from racism to wanting to win matches to sportsmanship to respect. I really like playing football and it saddens me how more people at this level don’t really feel that way.

This is why England will not win anything, too much emphasis is given on physical and brute strength while not enough is on skill and technique of players and when you mix that in with the leniency that is shown to thugs and villains of the game all it does is create an environment where people with skill and talent get viciously kicked and harassed out of the game and then it just doesn’t become fun to play anymore and then become disillusioned and then they quit. Sure you can say that they do not have the character to rise against adversity and if their belief is strong they should keep pushing to achieve their goals and dreams but to that I say BULLSHIT! Complete and utter BULLSHIT!

Why should they have to constantly fight against the system? A system that should be set up to encourage talent, a system that should be set up to weed out stubborn players and to promote a positive way of thinking, a system that brings in players that want to win and enjoy football not to be violent and hurt people and get your enjoyment from that because then you are simply just in the wrong sport. In media everywhere such as films and TV shows we are constantly shown that good people get rewarded while the villains get punished, no doubt a lot of the times you will see the heroes of the story win at the end. Never has that been so false in football.

While I am only one man who doesn’t really have that much power to change anything, it really is time for a change.

Haven’t we been here before? Alternative title: Same shit, different toilet of a tournament

England out, oh deary me, and on penalties too. What a shame and the same topics come up in discussion as the last time they were out of a major tournament.

Do I feel bad at this? No. Just no. Italy deserved to go through and the only reason I'd've ever wanted to see England go through to the final is so that the training scheduled on the exact same time as the match would have to be cancelled but it doesn't matter now does it, they are out =D

I was watching the match at the…boozer and I was talking to someone…(memo to self, must make an attempt to actually learn the names of my temporary workmates) and they mentioned about how when it comes to England football games, the culture is one that you see on documentaries and programmes which at first you think that it can’t be true and it’s merely an exaggeration but you know something? It’s not.

Well they got through, can’t say I’m over the moon about it but whatever

Hmm, okay you wanted reasons why I do not like the England team? The reason why I was disappointed when Sweden lost to England? The reason why I’m disappointed England got out of that group stage?

I suppose one might call me a Anybody But England person but I like certain players and certain teams style of football and England are not one of them. They play an incredibly dull style (though given time I will actually appreciate an organised and compact system). I also cannot stand their arrogance and their misguided superiority when the truth is that they are just not that good.

The other reason is that whenever England is the topic of the discussion, it tends to bring out the ugly racist side of people and I can't help but feel like I don't want to be a part of that culture, a country which they are inherently racist. To support them unconditionally would be like to support racism and that goes against every fibre of my principles. It just how I roll, I don't do things unconditionally anymore, everything I love, everything I do, everything I say is all because I want to and not because I have to.

So no I will not support England out some misplaced patriotism or whatever, I will support them when they play good football (bearing in mind good football for me doesn’t necessarily mean fancy flicks and fancy tricks) and if people aren’t cool with that then I’m not sorry and I really don’t care.

Commercial success or critical acclaim?

Music artists aspire to have both commercial success as well as critical acclaim, some may manage this while others don't. The same sort of desire exists in other fields as well, films, books, video games amongst other things.

But what does that mean to me?

Battling on

Okay now I vow to update this with a minimum of once a week as it's getting ridiculous how I don't stick to things and get bored of things and just forget about them but there's not really much I can do about that as that's just the way I am, I’m always pursuing new things when things get stale (though I am guilty of staying in my comfort zone far longer than I want to be)

Right now I'm on my way to a football tournament, a 7-a-side competition between Nike stores after playing a match yesterday (just how I like it) and I'm excited because I haven't had a chance to play 5,6,7 a side for a while simply due to shifts and availability but either way I'm going to do the best I can because I know that doing that will give our team the best chance we have of winning.

What do I think of my teammates? I really don't know as the only time I've ever played with some of them is the 5-a-s...4-a side tournament we had when we started and that wasn't really a good reflection of how good we are as it was not competitive at all (I wasn't wearing any gear for football) so this time we're playing to win and hopefully we finish in a position where we win or we feel like we should have won it (by that I mean in a position where if luck was on our side due to some fluke goal or hitting the woodwork we would have won).

But anyway back to the point of this entry was really to talk about giving up. Why do we...or rather I do that. I maybe think it's because of I get into a comfort zone where I'm content with things and I don't continue my training or whatever. Perhaps it's because I find new things to hold my interest as well. I was supposed to be using Rosetta Stone to learn the language I've always wanted to be fluent in but I find myself doing other time wasting activities such as watching Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood, not that I regret that or anything as I said I needed to experience new things and here I am doing just that.

So I'm just going to try and get back into my tasks and goals seeing as I made April the month where I better myself and I like to think I am doing that but I can't just be satisfied with that as that brings the danger of getting complacent which is basically just the same as going backwards.

So plough on Jason, keep going.

Back to business

Okay, it's a nice day and things are going good in my life...well I guess okay but anyway. Here I am with the rest of my Charlton team just wanting to hurry up and get onto the pitch because standing around talking is really something I get annoyed at while I'm here because if an opportunity to play football arises then that is the ONLY thing on my mind.

My ankle is still feeling a bit sore but I feel I may be able to kick a ball with little pain...at the start at least. Over the whole 90 minutes I don't know but we'll see now won't we.

Guilty before proven innocent

So John Terry isn't going to resign his captaincy during the Euros because he feels he is innocent? Good for him I guess, in a society where people are guilty until proven innocent (and even then still guilty in some people's eyes) I actually feel sorry for him as he receives so much abuse from all sorts of people when the possibility remains that he might actually have been innocent but either way the media and society have already decided that he is guilty

Case for the defence

So basically you want to know why I deserve to play for Charlton? I will tell you exactly why I should play for Charlton.

Where to begin...well okay that last match I feel was terrible, no doubt about it but everyone has bad games sometimes.

Anyway for starters I should be playing because I can make things happen. I have the potential to win games. Case in point but when we played I believe it was Mottingham and the game was one all for the whole match and even with 2 minutes left as both teams were settling for a point each I snatched the ball and dribbled past two players and was calm enough to find a teammate who was in a better position than me to score the winning goal and I unselfishly squared him up.

You see, goals and assists means very little to me as it doesn't mean you had a good performance nor does it mean you had a bad one. So while I may not be leading the goals or assist charts, I feel the contribution I bring to the team is irreplaceable. The team we have now are unsure, rash and cannot use their heads more often than not so I feel what I bring is calmness and assurance to the team. I will seldom panic when on or off the ball and always use whatever I can to make the most of a bad situation.

My passing and especially my link up play is a whole lot better than the majority of players in the team. I can dribble comfortably and while I may be criticized for holding onto the ball for too long, there are mainly two reasons for this. The first being that no-one else makes the right movements meaning I have to hold onto the ball a bit longer as I cannot pass it to them because they are in a terrible position that passing it to them is pointless (case in point, last game in the second half I had the ball and yet two people were making exactly the same run directly into the penalty box with no attempt at a diagonal run to draw defenders away if not for me but for themselves thus I had to hold onto the ball a while longer and eventually resulted in a weak strike at the goal but the only shot in the second half).

The second reason why I may hold onto the ball slightly longer is because I don't trust certain people to not lose the ball or waste it even under absolutely no pressure. Yes this sounds arrogant but I don't believe I am because the facts speak for themselves.

What else? Oh yes finishing, it may not be evident due to not scoring many goals but if given the chance I have the calmness and can finish off chances that I get. Case in point, when we won 7-0 or something like that recently before the new year and I had a hamstring injury in the match and yet I still managed to control a cross, dribble pass 2 players and have the composure to slot the ball in the back of the net for my first goal and control another cross and rifle the ball in the back of the net. It also speaks volumes that even with an injury restricting me heavily I was still able to put in a better performance than many others.

I could go on and on really especially as I haven't even begun to mention my intelligence, vision, my wiliness to pass it backwards or sideways which some people just cannot do, my ability to create space for myself.

Sure you can mention the weak parts of my game but they are only weak because I do not have the proper support or anything like that. The common one I hear is getting back to defend and I grow tired of hearing that. I will work on that no doubt but two things to remember about that and the first is that, if we knew how to hold on the ball a lot better I and whoever else is playing in the middle or on the wing wouldn't be caught out of position so often because someone cannot play a simple pass or hold onto the ball better. The other thing is, I try and drop back if someone else is pushing up forward but undoubtedly I believe that most of the times because of my traits and skills the person who should be attacking most of the times should be me anyway especially as I'm an attacking midfielder and not a box to box one. My style of play is like a number ten and while I don't wish to seem arrogant again but asking me to drop back and play like a defensive midfielder is like asking someone like Jack Wilshere, Andreas Iniesta, Steven Gerrard and Wayne Rooney to a lesser extent to play defensive midfielder. They can do that and they can do a decent job of it as well but it's a waste of their skills when they could be contributing so much more to the team.

Yes this was long but you asked me to justify why I should be playing for the team. You don't have to agree with it or not but everything I've said is the truth. I have no purpose to lie and deceive about this matter. If we were professionals and if we were on Match of the Day, I've no doubt the exact same things would be said.

The Rivalry

I've been playing Pro Clubs with Kalid recently and as fun as it is I can't help feel the need to be better than him (nothing personal) at everything football related because I love football that much that anyone slightly or who believes themselves to be equal in level to me I have to go out of my way to prove them wrong and that no, I am and always will be better than you.

So anyway even on Fifa on Head to Head Seasons I made sure that I was in a higher division and that my Virtual Pro was better because that's just me, competitive when I want to be. Hahaha oh boy...I suppose some might see that as being pathetic but you know what, I don't care at all hahahaha.

Okay so onto actual football...Eamon...urgh fuck that, I'm not going to let him be better at me at that. It's not even that I'm worried about competition or whatnot or that I'm worried that my throne would be usurped because let's face it, a presidential run would be boring without a couple of assassination attempts to go with it.

In fact that's the only reason I'm at this point, because when you're the best without any challenge...you start to become a little lax, there's no excitement in being undisputed number one, sure the praise is nice and all but personally I need that challenge and it's all about the journey for me.

So yeah I guess at the moment Eamon is better than me but he has the advantage of being fitter and that's is all. I feel...no, I KNOW for a fact that if objectively we were both playing at our peak with nothing holding us back then I would be the victor and he would know it.

So what's the plan now Jason?

To become the best player if only amongst the people I know and oh ho ho believe me, it's going to happen. I really do have to thank Nike for that, ever since playing that 5 a side tournament I realise how good I used to be and how far I've fallen...or at least how far I allowed myself to do so...hahaha...oh my gosh, I am so so pumped up for this, two months, nothing but solid workout and practise for two months and I'll gauge my level then but believe me if I get to optimum strength, weight and shape then I will in fact be the greatest.

What's funny is I don't even need to be the fastest or strongest or any of that business because that is not my game at all.

My game involves trickery, lies and deceit...huh...in other situations maybe I shouldn't be so proud to say that but in this case I actually am proud to say that...my game doesn't revolve around me being faster than the defender or being stronger than the defender or any of that business because most of the times that means nothing if they have the drop on you and they have the better position.

I liken it to attacking a fortress on a mountain. It doesn't matter how well trained or how much fitter or stronger your army is, you will always be at a disadvantage. It's the same with football, you may have the ball but it is so much easier (still hard, not trying to put down defending) to dispossess someone than it is for them to get past you in a favourable position.

Anyway like I said, my game involves trickery via use of my skills and bag of tricks like the elastico, stepovers, fake rabonas and my personal favourite, the scoop turn all of which I rarely use these days.

The lies involved in my game basically involves convincing the defender that they are better than me, that they are faster or stronger or whatnot simply so that they let their guard down and that's it when I kick them in the metaphorical crotch and gut punch them in the metaphorical kidney and then proceed to laugh while I do it...gah I love being a jerk.

And finally the deceit which involves me selling them a whole bunch of goodies which are in fact totally bogus...haha oh my goodness, the thrill of selling a defender a dummy and then just saying bye when you blitz past them while they are wrong-footed, that just sends chills down my spine and gives me goosebumps.

There is nothing quite honestly like dropping your shoulder one way and convincing them that the ball is within their reach (though that's more of a lie) and that they can just stick a leg out to nip that ball away from me but you know something? You just got nutmegged, thank you and goodnight.

WHAT THE FUCK!?

THAT’S NOT HOW IT HAPPENED AT ALL!

My goals were a lot better than described…ehh fuck it. I don’t care…it’s to be expected.

Credit where it’s due

I feel.....that I'm never going to get the props I deserve...I could play out of my skin and yet someone else will get more credit.

Ha...I never thought I'd get annoyed with being Mr Reliable but there you have it, anything my teammates can do, I can do just as good if not better when it comes to technical things and eurgh...I dunno, maybe, maybe I am getting the praise now I think about it but I come across as someone who if you tell me I will not be fussed or something I don't know...

Anyway I guess I don't really respond the way people expect me to but you know what? I don't care, I'm not going to bend over backwards to please you...if I'm happy with myself then I'm happy, I feel I have come a long way from a year ago but still not where I would like to be just yet.

James did bring up a good point about me not doing as many tricks as I used to do in Mary Hare and I thought "fuck, he's right" but I know exactly why that is...I had to cut them out of my game when THAT injury happened as it affected my knee if I moved it in a certain way. So then I changed my play and became about passing and playmaking as opposed to taking my man on.

Anyway, now that my knee is better I can actually go back to that way but first it requires me to shed a bit of weight simply to make me a lot more agile and to make it easier for sudden changes of direction which a lot of my tricks utilise. I've been working on that and I'm happy with how it's gone so far however there's still work to be done and I can't help but grin at how excited I am at this...it's almost been a year since that operation and look at where I'm at and where I'm going.

Also just as a side note and a reminder...I have an addictive personality so don't even think about trying certain stuff. The things you're addicted to now is bad enough...(though I could argue that I'm not actually dependant on it but whatever)

A line crossed

My…goodness, I’m done with you, defended you for long enough and now you’re going to refuse to play when you are asked to?

Carlos, Carlos, Carlito…I defended you when others would criticise, heck not just me but others would too citing your work ethic and talent as reasons to overlook these mishaps but what do you do? Simply spit back in the faces of those who’d support you, eurgh…

The public has a very negative view of footballers especially with the wages that they get and I have defended that to an extent and then this happens, you refuse to play and then claim there was a misunderstanding…a misund- what. the. fuck. No, no no no nonononnoooo you don’t get away with that, you’ve been here in this country for how long and you’re still at the point where someone telling you that you’re going to come on the pitch can be misconstrued for you to sit and sulk like a bitch on the bench. MY…GOODNESS…

I just…eurgh…no. I’m done with you. Zabaleta blanked you when you tried to talk with him and I laughed, oh how I laughed…

Now I’m not even making much sense anymore so I think I’m going to stop there and say there is nothing you could probably do to make me look at you in a favourable way again. Right now I’m not mad at you as I’m sure you had your reasons and it made sense to you but for me I just can’t and will not deal with you anymore. Goodbye.

Haven’t we been here before?

Oh my goodness, so so sooo predictable, you really think I didn’t see that coming? You think that you're the only one to comment on my attitude but what I will say about that is let’s face it, it’s because it’s pretty much same old same old. I do what I do in order to better myself, I mean come on, I will be frustrated about stupid goals being conceded and/or passes and things going awry.

I’m supposed to be satisfied with the situation right now? Am I supposed to be all happy and smiley with the fact that yet again we cannot seem to do the basics right? So I was a substitute today and yeah I was disappointed (no shit) especially as I knew that it was politics that this situation arose, I am so confident and buzzing in my ability (thanks to working with such brilliant people) that to be on the bench was annoying especially as I feel that I shouldn’t be dropped but meh, I’ve been here before and I’ll do now what I did then and that’s destroy…everything. Goals, assists, tricks, chances, I shall do them all and show you why I am the best, why I am unbeatable, why you never really should put me in a corner.

Oh how I’d hate to be you right now…

I predict a riot

How do I feel? Happy? Sad, Frightened? Worried? Blissful? I don't actually know, I suppose a combination of blissful and relaxed.
I was worried a bit for my position at Nike but they've sort of reassured me about the situation but I know I won't be relaxed until I start on the first day so until then I'm still slightly anxious for this to not blow up in my face.

Next up is these riots and it's served to do nothing to reaffirm my disappointment in this society. Okay I may not know about the cause of all this other than someone got shot during a protest blah blah blah but what I do know that all this rioting is unnecessary and pointless as well...nothing good is going to come out of it. I may have been all for starting a riot when I was younger in a jokey way (ahhh memories) but rioting without a purpose is....well, like I said, pointless. A change in government policy, a change in the way the place is run, an extremely controversial decision made in court or something like that okay, I can see a riot if enough people felt the same way but even so you'd have to decide whether the repercussions will be worth it for whatever change you had in mind but with this...there doesn't seem to be a purpose with this and that people are rioting and looting for the sake of it.

Anyway...what else is there? Ooh yes, the gym. Well that's going okay I guess, the programme that was given to me I'm trying to stick to and trying to stick to the amount of reps and sets but of course I have off days and that but I'm trying so that's something I'm pleased at. I've been doubted for long enough in regards to football so this year I'm going to be like "I'M BACK MOTHERFUCKERS!" and teach them a lesson in true greatness and what it looks like (me).

I am Jason Mycroft, accept no substitutes.

Flyer than the rest of them, still got my Niké boots

Oooh optimism, you are one funny thing, so easy it is to gain you just as quick as it is to lose you. Pre season training has arrived and this is it, the start of what hopes to be a promising season…promising for who? Ahhhh well you see that depends on exactly what happens between now and the date of the first pre season training session.

So basically put, I’ve put on weight, no pulling punches about it and it doesn't bother me because honestly I really didn’t think I’d be able to get back into football as a combination of playing with an injury and lack of motivation meant there was nothing to aspire for.

So has that changed now? Hmmmm somewhat…hmm. Yeah it has, I’m thinking to just get back into shape simply because my game plan when playing football is not about power and is more about being agile and using trickery to turn the tides into my team’s favour. I haven’t really set any goals yet and you know something? I think I might just do that right now.

Teams can play as good and as bad as they want but the simply undeniable fact is that goals wins games.

Basically I need to set myself a target of goals seeing as last year (which I don’t really count due to injury) I scored…what 4 goals or something? Barely any assists and that is just a disgrace.

So this year I aim to get hmmm let’s say…see I’ve got to think, where exactly is it that I will be playing because defensively I’m pretty much done so it’s all about the offense baby! Ahem…yeah I’m only up for playing as Attacking midfielder/Striker so that being said I’d say 10 wouldn’t be such a bad choice for a target, 15 if I’m pushing it but I honestly don’t know what the situation will be like when we return.

Assists? Well, the same thing as above applies so 10 assists should be a reasonable target for me to reach.
Getting back into shape, now I’m thinking this is a must especially as my game plan relies on it…sooooo that’s a must, I shall need to keep up my fitness throughout the whole season and that means NO QUITTING OR GETTING LAX…ahh who am I kidding, we all know it;s going to happen sooner or later, my only hope is that it happens waaaay waaaaay later.

Okay so I think I have everything, now all I need is to actually do this and that’ll mean that I go out in style and with a bang.

Look out world, Jason is coming for you

Projects to complete

1. Read The Zombie Survival Guide again because it’s such a good book
   
2. Join a gym to get fitter
   
3. Get back into updating this blog and consistently
   
4. Buy myself Niké CTR Astroturf trainers and football boots
   
5. Buy football shirts of teams that I like
   
6. Have at least one competitively viable Pokémon from every single family
   
7. Listen to songs and albums that I haven’t listened to on my iPod
   
8. Get songs and albums from artists whose discography I haven’t been keeping up with
   
9. Organise the songs I already do have on my iPod into categories
   
10. Buy myself an external hard drive
    
11. Get back into learning Spanish, French, Italian and Swedish
    
12. Get back into writing lyrics
    
13. Play the games that I bought but have yet to play. Bayonetta, Gears Of War, Assassin’s Creed, MadWorld, No More Heroes and some others
    
14. Read a list of manga. This includes Pokémon Special, Yu-Gi-Oh and many others, possibly Full Metal Alchemist but I may just watch the anime instead.
    
15. Play the games on my CycloDS iEvolution that I haven’t played
    
16. Learn some types of ballroom dancing such as the tango, waltz and others
    
17. Change my internet settings back to WPA (Danged Pokémon forced me to change to WEP)
    
18. Get my own place
    
19. Think of more items for this list