I definitely prefer the albums with a lot more songs on them...depends really

Wow, music is changing and it reflects the times as well. I've noticed it especially recently though it has been happening for a while but albums are just getting shorter and shorter. There are many reasons for this and many that have been heard before so I'm probably not exactly going to contribute any new ideas to this but here goes anyway.

The MP3 format and the fact we can now pick and choose what songs we want and then discard the rest in the metaphorical digital bin from places like iTunes and that that I guess it makes no more sense for artists to create an album with 'fillers' but for me those 'fillers' was what made the album as well and one person's idea of filler doesn't necessarily equate to another. I have many 4 and 5 star songs that a lot of people would consider to be crap tunes and rubbish but I say the same thing every single time, music is always going to be heavily subjective. I suppose people have fooled themselves into thinking you can have a 'good' and 'bad' song and there are certain qualities which make that so but for me, music is all about what is appealing to your ears. That ear worm of a pop tune that nobody you know seems to like but you yourself gets to number one on the charts yet no matter where you go or the reviews you read everyone slates it as a bad song but hang on, what defines a bad song? Surely the fact that it got to number one alone means enough people liked it to send it there? (Of course this is not counting the overexposure of certain songs or because it was featured or associated with a certain show/film/etc).

Do something will you!

Okaay so as I type this I am on my way to Kingsway College to pick up a prospectus and have a look around really. This is the next part of my life? Again I do question whether I will stick to this...well not stick to it but more, if I do this will I seriously know what direction I want my life to head in?

I always said that I'd want to be rich and I am not kidding when I say do actually feel I can do anything. See, the thing is with me is that I really do believe I can do anything if given the time and resources and the way I see the reasons for past failures in my life, it wasn't because I wasn't capable of doing it or that I didn't understand things really, they were more a combination of events out of my control and my own personal mentality. Now I'm not offering excuses and I hate it when people say "excuses, excuses" or any variation of that because it's not, I'm telling it like it is. You ask someone what the reason for failure is and they give you an answer, don't be so quick to dismiss it as an excuse.

Anyhoo, before going off there, basically, law is the next direction of life really. I'll be honest, I don't want to do it, I think the subject for me is dry, text heavy and not much excitement for somebody like me, but as I've figured out really from life, that's not the way world works, so what then? Well simple, if getting a law degree is going to get me higher then that's what I've got to do. If getting a law degree is going to tip the scales of life in my favour then that's really what I have to do. I may be interested in other things and want to do that but the world doesn't want that, they want this and so this I shall do. So yeah Emily, I guess you are right, I have given up on myself but to be honest, what else can I do, left to my own devices I would most likely achieve nothing and that would just be worse for you to be honest.

Anyway, enough with the downer stuff, here's something positive...umm, err, hmm, don't actually know, maybe next time I'll have something positive to say or maybe it'll be more ranting oh well, we'll see.

Just a little odd

Oooookay, so enough pussyfooting around and let me just jump straight into my grievance today and that would be with society's perception of what weird is.

Ask anyone what it means to be a bit weird and they will tell you that it's something strange, odd, different or basically against expectations. But you see, what exactly is expected of us as humans? There isn't really a guidebook on how to live or anything such as that in fact if anything the only rules really I think are the rules that keep you alive...that's if you are wanting to stay alive. You know, stuff like eating, drinking, sleeping. Don't get that, you die, simple as that, everything else is just a bonus really, how to speak? Not necessary for survival, what music to listen to? Your choice affects not how alive you are. Who to love? Again, just add ons.

Now another thing also is that everyone has a life, that is their own and that live is yours to do with it what you choose. No-one asks to be born, no-one choose when they wish to be alive but seeing as you cannot affect or choose that, you may as well choose and affect how you want to live your life, keyword being 'your'.

I don't know, maybe it's just me but I tend to notice there's a lot of interference in your lives as you live it, I am not talking about like when parents tell you not to touch that thing or you'll burn yourself or when they choose what school you go to and that...although...Anyway, I was thinking more about society and what it means to be 'cool' and 'weird' and other such labels. This also goes with expectations and such because why should other people dictate what music you like, what shows you watch, how you dress, who you like, when in fact it's actually you life? If they want someone that is so and so then why can't they just be that person themselves rather than wanting someone else to do so?.

Now, about the who you love thing, this is an especially annoying thing for me as there is a stigma around certain aspects of it such as who you are attracted to, what gender you're attracted to and so forth.

It's not the hate for them that I dislike intensely as people are free to hate who they want to hate, who am I to tell someone what they should like and dislike, who is anybody to do that really. What galls me is that I quite frankly find the logic of some people's reasoning of hating people like that shocking.

In case it hasn't been figured out, this is really about people attracted to the same sex especially males really, can't really say much about females to comment that much about it. Anywa- in fact, that's another thing, some of the males that are hugely homophobic have absolutely no problem with lesbians and rather find them a turn on but hold on...isn't that just hypocritical? No-one is saying you have to enjoy two men kissing but it just seems rather foolish to be homophobic in that way when you get the same enjoyment if it were two women.

"Ohhh, but it's not right". Yeah, who are you to judge what's not right or not, who are you to decide the factors on all this? The world just simply does not work like that, things are what things are, that's what I say, a green square is a green square, its meaning only changes depending on the observer, that being said, the same apply to two people of the same sex kissing or whatever, it is what it is, nothing more nothing less, some will see it as being right, some will see it as being wrong.

I'm sure there are many other reasons why people may not like gay people and I'm not complaining about that as people can hate who they want to hate but to me the reasons I hear for some doing so are hypocritical and do not really make any sense.

While I’m still sane

It’s been a year and you really have to ask yourself, what’s changed? The amount of times you say to yourself that you’ll do this and you’ll do that and your life begins now but really what’s changed? Everything is pretty much the same in ways, guess you just don’t have the mentality to really further yourself as that’s all that is stopping you. Guess you know the true meaning to brilliant but lazy.

The stench of love is in the air…smells like bacon

It mystifies me how in TV shows relationships don’t last long, ok, it’s not that that mystifies me but the fact that it usually ends because of one simple problem that could have been cleared up if the people had just said what they meant in the first place rather than speaking in cryptic codes so that one person misunderstands and confusion occurs and…they inevitably break up or whatever. I personally don’t like getting involved in people’s relationships because I feel in a group of friends enough people stick their noses and meddle in the affairs of other people that it just becomes a relationship not just with the partner him/herself but with the partner’s friends, family and anyone else who cares to get involved.

This not to say I’m a private person, I’m done with that. But I just don’t go round bringing up my relationship in every third sentence. Some people do and that’s their prerogative but just because I don’t that’s not to say that I don’t care about it or that I don’t want to talk about it just people get it mistaken for an act of privacy or that I’m uncomfortable about it when I don’t say much about relationships

I have observed some stuff about them so I present the 3 C’s to relationships, this also counts for friendships as well but I was thinking about relationships this time.

Commitment

You can tell a relationship is just a quick fling one or more persons don’t show enough commitment. This is not to say that you should ‘tie yourself down’ with the first partner you get but I see in these sitcoms and stuff how one is taking it seriously with the other is just treating it in a different way and so they see the relationship differently and they don’t put in enough commitment into the relationship.

When one sees the relationship as all fun and games and will treat it the same way unless the other feels the same way too then it’s just a recipe for disaster because if one doesn’t really see the relationship going anywhere then I’ve never understood why they persist but I guess that makes them them.

Compromise

Everyone is different and everyone wants different things and so it is quite understandable how this might affect a relationship but sometimes a little compromise can go a long way. Failure to compromise and understand just sets the scene for massive confrontations and arguments which sometimes puts a strain on a relationship. I’ve seen it in these shows where person A who I’m going to call Charlie wants something and person B who I’m going to call Jamie (hurrah for unisex names) doesn’t want it and either just gives in or they’ll just not do it. So if Charlie wants to go to a party, clubbing a night out whatever and Jamie doesn’t, they’ll have this loooooong argument about what to do and so on, cut to a later scene and the Charlie who went out bemoaning the fact that Jamie doesn’t want to spend time with them has slept with someone they met while going out and then the storyline drags on until they find out at a later stage (Christmas if you live in Walford), then there are tears and stuff all because Charlie and Jamie couldn’t reach a compromise.

I watch this happen so many times in the media and I think to myself “well, if they really understood the other person’s feelings on the matter a solution could be agreed with less animosity. Jamie doesn’t have to go out at all but Jamie does need to understand why Charlie might want to, how Charlie’s personality is that makes it so that Charlie wants to go out. The same applies to Charlie in the understanding Jamie’s behaviour. If they understood each others feelings and personality then maybe whatever ever decision they decide to do whether it’s they both stay in or go out or they do their separate things without the hostility, it doesn’t put a strain of some sort where one person feels that themselves or the other person is being too demanding.

It certainly would go a long way in improving the relationship of many seen in different mediums.

Communication

“Loc, is he available for coh-myoo-nee-kay-shun?”

Baring in mind that these are NOT facts or even me saying that people should do these things, everyone is different hence have their own way of dealing with things and events

Me giving relationship advice? Now the world has gone topsy turvy, but seriously? Communication. Things would be so much better if people communicated a lot more.

I turn to a time leech website on all the different ways that communication can break down and it’s mostly the kind of situation where you’re shouting at the screen “JUST TELL HER YOU LOVE ALREADY!” in a frustrated manner but they never do and they don’t know how the other person feels or whatever and it becomes a case of Poor Communication Kills and then it drags on and on and on and on (bit like my blog posts), they’ll get each other in the end or if it’s going for the other direction, one will find out the other’s feelings when it’s too late and I just think…we could have avoided all this.

The same thing applies I think to relationships, there are times when one person is hmm, how shall I put it? Not best pleased with the other person but rather than communicate this in a calm manner that can prompt a bit of discussion and that, they end up holding it in a taking it out on the other person which just leads to resentment growing in the relationship which eventually spills out and can damage a relationship.

Sometimes I think that to communicate in a calm, reasonable manner is certainly the way to go as it does avoid a lot of drama. See it’s quite easy for me to say this as my head rules over my heart and my emotions are…hmm, probably in check a lot of the times and though admittedly through practise I am less prone to outbursts of anger and the likes. But I do understand that that might not be easy for everyone and that sure sometimes emotions get the better of you but if a partner can understand that and thus react accordingly then relationships in my opinion would be a hell of a lot smoother.

Of course there are more things that works in a relationship and that every relationship is different and thus there cannot be a one size fits all guide to it but I reckon that in some cases the ‘three C’s’ is a good way to go by.

Today I woke up and then I realised it was just the same as yesterday

So anyway I’m back with this thing, and as you can see I’m still alive, ah but are you sure of that maybe it’s my ghostly spirit writing all this though I do have to wonder if my ghostly spirit did come back to roam the earth I’m sure it would do something a lot more productive than updating this blog. Now it is September and life is umm, still not how I’d imagined the high life but hey, I’m still working on that, anyway, ohh, speaking about life I did have a little ponder about life really (when do I not do that?) and while yes the situation is dire and hopeless etc, best not to worry about it at times. I’ve just been job hunting and as soul crushing as that is, there’s really not much else to do really, is there.

I’d like to say that I’m going to start being all cheerful and all but that’s a lie really but bleh. I’m thinking about all the stuff that I could do really and that, just looked up some of the old songs I wrote and I was thinking about actually finishing them because after singing it to myself…in my head, I found I actually liked them, just wished I was any decent enough to actually do something about it. I did try some new ones and to start on some new ones but the more I thought about it the more I thought, what do I really want to talk about? Because I personally would only write songs or heck do anything that I identify with in a way. I write them for me really so the message has to be something I believe in, it has to be fitting to my personality really. Not just writing lyrics but in all aspects of life. I’m just not the typical sort of person really and everything has to be…well…me. I won’t dress up a try to be someone else, heck if I see something I like, I like it, if there’s a song I like, then I’m liking it. The same applies to TV shows, films, cars (even though I care not for them), games, everything, If I like it, then I like it and I think that’s something that really should apply to everyone, people should be less worried what others think but I know that will never really be that easy. People are going to naturally associate objects and things with an identity and it doesn’t help that those people perpetuate that belief and it then it just makes people believe it even further.

So anyway like I said I’m back? Not and umm…enjoy not reading it I guess, not that anyone checks these things.

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